....lots of thanks

so this evening was very interesting and yet fun. yet again, i decided to mix groups. you know, my conservative christian friends, with my non-conservative ones. mind you, the two groups are similar in that they would do anything for friends. for example my friend jason, whom i've known since HS is one of the greatest people i know. he's very unselfish and despite the fact that sometimes things do not go his way, he still has the capacity to put aside his own problems to see to it that your (if it's more severe than his....actually even if it isn't) are ok, and that he'd make sure to the best of his ability, that you know that someone cares for you. i love him to death. chanelle, despite the fact that she can come off as bitchy and stand-offish, she's very supportive of your endeavors and would also make sure you get to go to an ice cream shop if someone breaks your heart. two fundamentally different people have one thing in common...they are great friends. i think i've developed a knack for ciphering through people i meet (acquaintances) and finding the diamond in the rough. i'm blessed that way. i think i've been hurt too much back in the philippines by people i thought were friends that i was able to sharpen my skills in finidng the right ones....though, it took awhile.

anyway, there were some sketchy parts of the evening....like when tom wanted to have a dinner blessing when jason isn't christian...he is in fact jewish. hmm, how uncomfortable. but anyway, he let it pass (for now) and we talked about it later. but i don't think i would, in any time soon, mix the two groups agian. ....hmmm, my party friends have diminished in size though since i no longer partake too much in such activities. aaaaahhhhhh!!!! i think i'm growing up. eek!

but that is life, you grow, and you learn, and you make decisions.

well, thank you friends for your lovely dinner. sorry for the rain that made after dinner festivities die down. i had a great time. thanks for the wonderful gifts too. manicure and a pedicure PLUS, a nice sweater. whee hooo!!!

though time and space we cannot control
we move through it with such great force
sometimes though we just forget
to stop and look and appreciate what we get

in many moments we look back
why didn't i thank them for that?
remorse follows and then regret
why didn't i do something, why did i forget?

we contemplate and dwell on missed opportunities
the "what if's" and roads we have missed
no longer can we turn back time and space
for we cannot control entities like these

we've heard it plenty of times
"smell the roses" and to "seize the day"
carpe diem is that all it takes?
to have no regrets of past and what we may call now as mistakes?

sometimes though that's all it takes
at least you' have tried and did not put it to waste
to never look back and say
i wish i could take back that time and space