and so it is...

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i wake up around noon at another city. just in time to catch a quick lunch. i go to meetings ...maybe appearances, be it corporate -- radio -- television. afterwawrds, i go to the gym and work out for about 2 hours. sound check is next then dinner. then i go meet with my voice trainer. this time i was headlining and so i was able to hang out outside and talk to people on the street while they wait to get into the club. then about an hour before i go on, around 10ish, i go back inside, and warm-up my voice. the band and i just start harnessing the energy that we hear from the crowd waiting for us. we do a quick prayer and we go on the stage. i talk to the concert goers. dedicate songs to special someone's from the people i met earlier outside. i look out to the modest crowd and i smile. this is the life. and the band and i played and sang our hearts out. i lose myself from the songs and the energy. i forget the fact that i used to be afraid to be in front of people. gladly thanking God for being able to have this opportunity. my daily therapy, a way to explore myself and celebrate life through music. the concert ends around 1:45. It was longer than we planned but the crowd was unusually awesome. actually, that's becoming the norm, from the past year we've been touring. i don't complain (for now anyway) it's easy to lose time when you're having fun. i hope i don't get overwhelmed. i'll continue to play so long as people want to listen. meet and greet of course happens after the performance. we do this for about another hour. then off we go to another venue. since i'm running through adrenaline, it is hard for me to sleep. and so, i write my experiences. just like what i'm doing now. keep up with the journal so that i would not forget the details. at this late hour, i usually get inspiration to write my most intimate thoughts into mind blowing poems...which later get's created into a song.

i wake up and look up
i don't know where i am
but i still have a feeling of happiness
contentment is what it has become

i wonder sometimes if it is real
i pinch myself and make myself feel
that this very moment is my reality
and i am pleased to live it fully

i smile and thank God for this opportunity
i chuckle to think i almost didn't try
i'm glad i learned to listen fully
to the subtle hints given to me

i am given a gift that i should share
to entertain with conviction and love and care
i thank the Lord for everything
even if this ends right now, i at least shared the gift
and i'll gladly move on and shift
to another endeavor, to another path
as i wake up this morning to take a bath =)

isn't this a wonderful dream? that's what i see when i shift into another career. i even see asking my aunt brenda, or cousin noel cuizon (both accomplished artists in the philippines) to design my album cover. for a second album, then the label has more trust in me, i'll have maria regalado-yusi to help arrangements in my music as well as ryan cayabyab to put some ethnic filipino sound into my folk, , jazz style. it will be unique and awesome! that's at least one album i would love to make. a natural marriage of the two worlds i know.