Ego, Superego, Id

I've been a little restless this past few days. Maybe because I know that there are some things that I need to be working on in my life. Things that I need to recalibrate.

Have you ever had an event in your life that you have not been prepared to handle, however minor it may be, and end up being discombobulated? That's how I feel right now. The feeling that I should have handled things differently. How I should have known better. How I should have seen it coming when all the signs have been there in huge neon signs and have conveniently ignored it. I guess when it comes to relationships and things you desire to work, you end up looking away from all the tall-tell-signs of "this is not going to work --move on!"

So I ignored it. I ended up hurt. I started getting lost and strayed from the path that I've long since traveled. I guess I needed some excitement in my life and when it presented itself, however much my ego tried to repress my id, it still prevailed. I guess my superego is not working too well since I have no remorse what-so-ever. I don't know. I'm confused. I need direction. I need to figure this out and nip it in the butt before it spirals into something that I WILL feel remorse about.

Well, I hope I get over this. I hope I find my way. I hope I can figure out what's up!