lost my way

I've been meaning to blog the past few days and have been lost for words. I guess I've been trying to figure out what's been going on with me having shocked myself with recent events. No need for details but the gist of it all is that I surprised myself on how easily I can abandon things that I've long since held dear and valuable and yet feel no remorse afterwards. I half feel like a hypocrite for not being able to act out the words I preach. How sad.

Which then has put me in a spot that is making me wonder, what are my priorities now? What is it that I hold dear? What is it that can crack an armor worn for so long? Carelessness is all I can think of. Giving in to lust and temptations isn't quite the road I would like to continue traveling on.

I'm hoping I'd find my way back on the right track.