lead on!

I often wonder with anything I do that even with the most careful planning, if it were not meant for me, then it will inevitably not attained. Case in point. My friend Wes has wanted to be in accounting and finance most of his life. He has planned out his path and stuck with it like glue. He graduated at the time frame he set. Got the ultimate job and then realized ... this is not for me. On the flip side, my sister who has wanted to become a doctor since childhood did become one and loves it. Plan as you may, it looks like, but if it was not meant for you, then it will not ever happen. Or it will and you'd realized that what you wanted and then having it do not actually fit. Once you realize that, what now? Do you just give up? Find another goal? Take a chance and hope that its meant for you? Just like the Mraz song goes "In case you never noticed the path you never chose has chosen you." Such a simple combination of words that carries such wonderful meaning and quite an epiphany if you give it a whirl in your head. Go ahead give it a try, let its wonders lead you. Its scary trust me, but its worth the anxiety. You realize suddenly, try as you may, but whatever path is for you, you'll suddenly find it one day.

Realizing the fact that life is unpredictable. With all its ups and downs, I can see why its easy to just give up. To throw in the towel and say, fuck it! then walk away. Its all in the attitude, I guess. That ability to look at the world and see its potential rather than its pits, falls, and obstacles. Seeing the world in a kaleidoscope and with color I think, is the best way to handle curve balls. You trust of course that you would be able to follow whatever path you are meant to trudge --be it a mountain, a forest, an ocean ... all have their own roads. Along the way, its important to find a helping hand. An information desk or go on a rest stop to get directions. Pride sometimes gets in the way to just take someone's hand to lead you on parts of your journey. Giving up some of that control is hard and I'm learning that the hard way. I cannot control everything. I cannot throw in the towel. I have to take someone's hand and let them lead so that one day, I'll have the capacity to guide another. Its going to be a difficult strip on my journey this year and I'm starting to give up some of my control to to God, to destiny, to be people I care and can see my path ahead better, and to those who know more than I. Lead on my friends, lead on. You have every right to slap me if I resist but I'm slowly letting go. Whatever it is, wherever I go, in this part of the journey, you have the control.