Lost in Translation

It is not just the movie. The title itself is quite profound. In a world divided in so many ways, its easy to find yourself "LOST." I do not even know where to start. I have in so many instances have felt lost, confused, and alone despite the fact that I'm surrounded by people. Having people around does not mean it will make you happy. Rather, sometimes it isolates you even further especially when all you want is a connection with just one person. If you are anything like me, I have my moments. I can be totally extroverted --where I can hang out with people, joke around, and be rambunctious. Other times, all I want is to be quiet, a wall flower, and observe.

I felt lost the most when I just started HS when I moved from the Philippines to a US school. I was 15 then. Talk about lost in translation. The culture is hella different. I've always thought that I was gonna blend it and assimilate the culture rather quickly since I was brought up with mostly American shows. I actually cried almost every night for 2 months. It's crazy. I hated it. I could totally relate to Scarlet Johansen's character. No where to go but find someone who I can relate to. For her, its a fellow American in a foreign world speaking a different language. For me --well, its a kind soul that would just hang with me. To have a conversation with, and not judge. I'm the kid who did not have to take ESOL and placed in honors English. Why were people so surprised that I was not on ESOL? Well, you know what? Let Bygones be bygones. No need to dwell on this fact and I just need to move on. But the point is, I was lost then in a world so different.

Now? Well, I'm still lost. Not the same situation as before but where the pressure of the professional world is banging at my door and making me choose on what career I should be in. I really don't know what I want to do. Nor do I have a clue where to even start. Signs have been pointing to something -- but I would rather just see where it goes. Music here I go. Where it will take me I don't know. Being lost is not that bad really. It makes you attentive. It keeps you on your toes so that you can follow the path made for you. And so here I am, lost and yet happy for the adventure. Translation: I'm happy to go where it leads me.