on a lighter note....

i have been informed that my posts have been majorly melancholy of late. and so i'm attempting to lift up the spirits, so you wouldn't hate. don't get me wrong folks. i still have lots in my mind, but i'm stoked. since the possibilities are endless, i'm moving through not with blindness. but a slow cruise to greatness. whatever or wherever it may take me. i'm just glad that i'm conscious about the possibility. i believe i'm going through this with open eyes. and no, there is not one bit of guise. cuz who else would i be fooling? no reason to do it if i'm meandering. there's a world out there that i need to explore. and take things like a total whore...wanting more, wanting everything, trying everything. like my ranting? hehehe! anyway, these are my thoughts for the day. not at all gloomy as compared to yesterday. good thing i have friends who look out for me. else i'll be slashing my wrists and where will the party be? nowhere if i were to do that. so chill, take a sit on that cozy little mat.

Right now i'm thinking though. am i looking too far ahead that i'm missing the "now." i'm not sure. i don't want to miss out on the lessons i should be learning on my way to wherever. ok, need to focus. i just need to. gosh. anyway, if you all have been paying attention, i've made a collection of thoughts in this online journal of mine. i was hoping by now that the melody for at least one would have come. as of now, none. sad. i used to write songs but it always come together. maybe i just need to focus a little bit more. or learn a little bit more. i don't know what gives. i think my skills are slowly coming in line. writing and all. but the music in me has not exploded as of yet. i've been singing lots lately. mostly in my car. that's why i really need the tape recorder. i hope my sister sends it over soon. anyway, pray that i find my song. that one song. just like that guy in Rent....he was looking for his song and found it a year later. well, if it takes that long to find my melody, so be it. i'm not giving up though. 'til then, i'll be doing what i'm doing. work (though i'm hating it more and more), teach (it's getting better), mediTate (getting good at that), and listening to the world and myself then putting it on paper.


the sun is shining bright this day
as i wake-up this early may
spring is in the air, with the birds singing
its great to start your day humming

my spirits high, and with a smile on my face
i look about this world to trace
a happy chap i am today
this early morning in may

i sing a song to my delight
celebrating this wonderful life
nothing's going to go wrong today, i say
because it's a wonderful day in may

flowers starting to bloom again
grass green and i can get a tan
laying out soaking the sun
this today in the month of may

oh the early morning is making me smile
just ready to take things and be agile
i want to give everything a try
full of happiness, i'm ready to cry


WHY AM I WRITING ABOUT MAY? GO FIGURE. IT'S A GREAT MONTH. HAVE A GREAT EVENING!!!