twinkle fingers

i'm here in front of my computer typing. sometimes i have no control over my fingers. seriously, i sometimes i just start typing and my thoughts are completely different. or maybe my hands respond to my unconscious and that's what comes out. hmmm, i wonder. that would be a good psych experiment. maybe that's why my dyslexia kicks in and my letters are all mixed up to type up a word. it's really funny. i guess only to me since i'm the only one who sees it. although sometimes, i forget to spell check and you all get to see the learning disability kicking in. but really, i do not have a diagnosable disability, i just feel that i do. hmmm, maybe i should get tested. if i do have some learning disability, or affect problem, well --that would explain sudden burst of hyperactivity. ADHD rules! maybe i'll get to take ritalin. hahahah. i kinda refuse to take meds. i mean, seriously --i know i get migrane headaches and i usually can tell when it's about to come on. do i take meds? um, noooo. i wait 'til it's full blown and the effects of tylenol is just null. yes, tylenol. i'm allergic to abuprofine. sad. oh well. you take what you can get. i would actually rather sleep off a migrane headache than anything. oh well, i'll just continue on my typing. do my magic as i edit through the website we are creating for a project....um, not a web designer but i'm creating one. go figure. i'm just a jane-of-all-trades. wheee hooo! i'm back with my twinkle fingers on the keyboard. fun fun. thoughts will come later....


i went and openned the door
what's behind it i was not sure
i'm gitty and scared with what is there
but i'm going through the door that opens to anywhere

i walked through and i'm in awe
i'm not sure how to describe what i saw
the open world suddenly available
ready for me, with open possibility

as i walk through, my knees started buckling
light headed, i just started tackling
the various opportunities being thrown
not wanting to drop anything down

i juggled the tasks that i was given
not able to discern the importance of each
the lessons learned
and the wisdom preached

i openned the door and i regret nothing
whatever is instored i'm ready to face
else live this world without a trace
and miss my chance to contribute to the world
that's given me more than i really deserved

the door is open the possibilities endless
my heart is pounding and i don't want to be reckless
besides the fact that i know nothing about the world
i'm majorly clueless, and that's totally fine
i'll just continue to walk through this door of mine