"Don't Stand So Close to Me"

I keep people away. There is a certain distance that I keep everyone. Some closer than others. But there is distance, however minuscule or wide a span it may be. Or maybe I just delude myself in thinking that I keep that distance, for self preservation's sake.

A friend of mine the other day said, "I think I know you pretty well . . . " At the back of my mind I was thinking, 'how well? we don't really hangout with each other much. It can be counted on both my hands probably . . . a little more than a dozen? or, when another friend said that with me, "it's what you see, is what you get." Is that a real statement? I'm not sure. I'm not sure of much lately but sometimes we just don't allow people to stand so close in fear of getting hurt, in fear of them finding out more about you, in fear of yes, even loving you.

It's funny that sometimes what we want the most is what we fear to get. I probably wouldn't know what to do if and when I do find the right guy, fall in love, and whatever is next. I'll probably be so scared that I'd drive him away. Well, whomever you are, just be patient.

But proximity may not always be the answer to closeness or the remedy to loneliness. I've met people who are alone and yet are happy. Happily content with life. They may be trying to deceive me but they seemed genuinely happy.

Be brave though. Once in a while say, sure, come stand close to me. You may be surprised at how fun it can be.