Why do I act like a "girl?"

With the amount of guys I hang out with, I feel like I should not be acting like a "girl" when it comes to the romance department. Although, I don't want to be stupid like guys as well. I want to be the even tempered girl who does not read into things. And yet, whoa ... lo and behold, I seem to have done it. I read into things that need not be read into and got into a roller coaster of an emotion for no apparent reason. Tells you how much I know about these things. I'm quite clueless really. Not to mention its all on my side of the world and nothing on him ... he's as clueless as any guy. I've had those moments, mind you but not THAT clueless.

I guess I'm not as immune to the "girly" side of things as I thought originally. Although, for the most part, I handle crap like the rest of the boys. What did Jack Nicholson said in As Good As It Gets? as he describes women? "I think of a man, and I take away reason and accountability." I'm quite dependable ... most of the time I have reason --maybe MY own reasoning of things, but reason nonetheless. So I'm close to being a guy as you can be under Melvin Udall's definition. =)

But as I've said on my last blog, All is done. Free at last! Free at last! . . .

It still bugs me that I acted like a typical girl. I need to work on that. Grrrr....