No room for Jealousy

I know envy is one of the seven deadly sins. Sometimes though, the green monster has its way in finding its way into my brain and I get a dose of green eye. Yes, I get jealous. It's a human feeling, but need to be cured. Like right now, reading the e-mail I got from the Mraz street team, I just wish I had Jason's life. Singing away --entertaining peeps all over. Touching lives without even being physically present. But through verse and song. Why am I admitting this? I guess I want my conscience cleared somehow. Admitting flaw is part of being humble, I guess. I don't know. But the point is, I'm confessing it to you, my friend. Although now, I have to say am more determined to try and reach a goal that seems so far away. Be able to perform for everyone and sing my heart away. There definitely is no room for jealousy.

In a wide horizon in front of me
All opportunities available
Reach out and grab hold
For what you receive is your destiny

As wide and vast the world may be
Opportunity knocks quite rarely
Hence holding on tight to that one goal
In hopes that one day I can truly free my soul

Far it maybe for me to travel by
With the green monster right beside
Obstacles and stumbles I will encounter
Whatever it is, I will survive and conquer

With a guilt-ridden heart
I go forth the journey into the heartland
The wide and vast land in front of me
Ready to be explored
Despite the green eyed monster ready to consume my soul
I shall triumph against all odds
And attain the goal

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So can someone tell me why I'm obsessed with this man? Seriously, it's sad. I guess he embodies a being that I would like to become. Maybe not the whole of him but some of him. His talent, his happy-go-lucky style, his love and appreciation for everything, his wanting to save the world somehow, one song at a time....Maybe it's all those and more ... or less. But the fact is, it disturbs me that I have it in me to be an obsessed "fan" that couldn't get enough information of a person I would probably never meet. I guess it's enough that I get a part of him through his music. But alas, the curiosity continues and I seek out everything Mraz. *sigh* It needs to stop.

Here with your Ghost

I am here, just here
Nowhere to go but here
Through your eyes I can see the world
Through you I experience the unknown

I have traveled where you have traveled
Experience what you care to share
Envelope myself with what I do not have
Through you though, I have it all

From afar I encounter danger
From a distance I observe
Places I would not be able to see
I feel every moment
Feel every emotion spent
Through you, I embrace love

This affair I have with the ghost that is you
The silhouette of your being envelopes me
I'm content to have this secret rendezvous
This affair I will cherish, bewitched by your very presence
My affair with the ghost that is you
Makes me experience the world that is true

The apparitions I am obliged
I recognize the value of you
This illusion I enclose myself in
The illusion of your ghost within

Thank you for giving part of yourself
To us that live vicariously through you
While I stay here, my humble self
I will continue to travel the world with your ghost
As I sit right here waiting for your prose