grasping for anything to hold on

here's my astrology forcast ... not like i believe in it. if you're in a funk like i have been this past week, you'll want to get your hands on anything. "Enjoy a little contentment. Your usual restlessness is taken care of by a romantic encounter or just an old-fashioned spending spree. The better part of the day will bring about pleasurable encounters that inspire without over-stimulating." See, even my stars are telling me to shop! hahahah!!! notice i ignored the romantic encounter thing....hahahah, there is none of that in my life as of yet. =( sad but true.

i reached to the sky and found nothing
i swam the oceans and found no treasure
i drove through vast highways and got nowhere
here i am, standing, empty handed

then here you are beside me
ready and excited for new adventure

together we reached for the sky and found the stars
we swam together and bathed in the ocean waters finding treasure
together we drove through the vast highways and lead us to forever
embraced by love and tenderness
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i've always been told that i'd find my way
that i should be a doctor, a lawyer, or some professional some day
people look forward to reaching my potential
while i sit back and think and quiver in silence

i'm scared as hell to what i'm suppose to be
am i doing the right thing?
am i where i'm suppose to be?
i hyperventilate just thinking of it
am i thinking too hard?
am i looking too far ahead?
am i racking my brains too much when i'm suppose to be enjoying the ride instead?

i suppose everyone goes through this
scared, and uncertain when it comes to the future
but why do i feel like i'm the only one who does not have it together
who feels like a failure, when i compare myself to another

will i ever find my way
will i ever get my niche
or will i always be searching
searching for the right and perfect pitch?

i guess i'll never know until i get there
maybe i'll die and searching for the right fare
i'll just enjoy what i have now
the journey to wherever, even though i'm scared somehow