boredom

it seems i've reached a peak on my boredom. i am apathetic, complasant, and overall --not motivated to do anything work related. work is not fun anymore. shouldn't work be fun? something you're excited about when you wake up in the morning? i sure don't have that anymore. not to mention my attention span is waning. lately, i feel like i have ADD and i cannot concentrated on anything. my mind goes in and out of focus. i cannot keep my mind on one track at all. why is that? it's really frustrating. it annoys the hell out of me. i'm here. ready for something. but with what? i'm not sure at all. absolutely not sure. i know in my heart there is no absolutes out there. i'm taking steps for "potential" activities. but that's taking slow. maybe i'm just being impatient. maybe i'm looking too far ahead. i need to concentrate on now. on what i have now. on what i can do now. on what steps i can do in the near future...but not too far ahead ... yet keeping it in mind as a goal. am i making any sense? i hope so. i wrote this song yesterday, when i find the final verse i'll write it down. 'til then...no writings for my readers. if there are even readers out there. even if i'm just writing to the void, i'm good with it. i just need an outlet for my head...what i'm thinking of. well, void, good night. i hope you're not as bored as me.