Singleness bubble

I'm afraid that I'm not as social as I think I am. No really, I think I know deep down that being around new people is about as unnerving as performing in front of people. I somehow equate it to each other. I've said this before though so maybe my recent experience being around unfamiliar people is just an affirmation of what I already know.

I can be the shiest person in the world around people I don't know. Going up to someone takes so much effort and courage that sometimes if I'm not up to it, the act of getting to know someone just isn't appealing. Maybe this very fact is one reason of my singleness. My inability to go up to an unknown person and introduce myself. Ok, I can do that if work requires it. I somehow don't have as much trouble. But going beyond the business arena, I just become speechless and cowardly. Whatever spine I had moments ago during work melts away into nothing and render me mute when expected to do the same in the social circuit. I think that's why I come off proud and stand-offish when I'm at a party or a club or a bar. Those shy men --whom I don't necessarily would like to approach me would not have the guts to approach me. I guess that's good since I need a guy who can carry themselves well and confident enough about themselves that they will ignore the aura of "don't come" and penetrate the singleness bubble to introduce themselves.

I don't know. I'm just rationalizing as per my usual in attempts to explain the singleness and the lack of romantic interludes. I must be doing something wrong since those who do not know me would stay away and those who DO know me would question why I AM single. Many question why anyway despite my happy disposition. What is it I'm doing wrong? I really don't know. I guess the right guy just hasn't come yet. I hope I haven't scared him away.