earthly feelings

This past weekend, I went to a wedding in Jersey.  It was quite fun despite the random torrential rain shower after the service and the fact that my charitable inclination to lend my umbrella went awry when the couple who used it didn't let Fr. Paul walk them to their car ... but instead pocketed the said rain deterrence contraption for themselves.  Its funny how possessions take hold of you and that twinge of attachment for such a stupid object like the umbrella can take hold of your being and the thought refusing to escape your head.  I find it ridiculous and yet I can't seem to let go of the feeling of loss.  Which makes me wonder how attached we really get to such earthly possessions.  Things that ought not to consume us has found itself ingrained into our being and however much we try to get it out of our brains, we revert back to that feeling of loss. 

 

The same feeling holds when another person instead of you has gained something.  The feeling of loss morphs into the green eyed monster.  Is that even a fair road to travel?  Loss leading to jealousy?  Well, I'll take it anyway.  See, my cousin Jessica got engaged last Monday, memorial day.  It's one of those ... "Finally!" kinda reaction since Keith and her have been dating forever.  It was just a matter of time when it would be official.  (though they don't live together)  Anyway, it was funny how that very day in the morning, my other cousin, Maricar and I were just talking about the very theme.  And Voila!  Later on though, I can't help think that I got gypped a little since I'm a year older than her and yet here I am.  Single.  No boyfriend.  Nowhere near marriage.  Don't get me wrong.  I'm enjoying my singleness but that twinge of "man!  i wish i have someone" has crept up into my consciousness.  

 

Yes, I'm committing a deadly sin.  But I'm human.  I'm flawed.  I ain't perfect.  I've accepted it and so should you.  You, me, and the rest of the world ain't perfect.  Big revelation huh...=)  Fact is fact.  Can't really deny it.  Oh well ... just some earthly feelings I have and I thought I'd share.  =)