1 + 1 doesn't always equal 2

Brace yourself! I'm off to rocket my way to somewhere!

I've been doing a lot of thinking lately. Scary, but true. How things are perceived as one thing can be different the next. How life can be quite unpredictable and even a tease. Fact is, as much as we plan, arrange, envision what things ought to be, it will never, in all actuality, end up as it should or rather, how WE think it should. I think that's where the "shouldah, couldah, wouldah" come into play. We either accept the end state, or we blame something or another for how things turned out to be. I for example blamed myself for things going awry with a potential "relationship" by maybe being too honest -- too forward maybe? Basically, I blamed myself for it. But maybe, just maybe really, it wasn't me. It could be him. It could be any other thing like an old love of his coming back. Or just a plain ... not meant to be. I could also have misreaed things, and just don't understand what it is that's developing. Whatever it is, what I envisioned of "what could be" didn't pan out and here I am wondering what went wrong. When really, there's nothing to ponder. Things just don't go right all the time. Especially when you have more than yourself making the decision. It's hard enough with just you making the decisions, just imagine adding another choice in the mix, or two, three more. The the probability of the "what could be" to actually become, goes down. Yes, quite a mathematical view of things but it explains it rather well. Life is full of seized chances, and missed opportunities. All we really ought to do is enjoy the ride until it ends. Then look back with satisfaction that all went as they should given the choices at that time.