mind tricks

Why does the mind play tricks on you? It's unbelievable how much power our brain, our mind, our imagination has, and if it were unleashed in anyway, it can get away from us. I've been playing mind tricks on myself...a lot more than usual really. (And I AM NOT INSANE) though at times, I may have the symptoms but really, its just my regular me and my imagination just getting out of hand. Anyway, I've been playing mind games on myself so that I will go to the gym. I hate it. Although at times, I like being there. Just lifting or being in the cross trainer. But getting to the gym just sucks....which is the part that I hate the most. All I really need to do is get a routine and I'm good to go. Easier said than done. Been planning that very thing since I got back from vacation and it's been almost a month and a half since I've been back. Oh well. I'm getting there though.

I also find myself (sometimes) day dreaming about what could be as oppose to what IS in my life. The lack of men, the abhorrent job, the I could be a size 0 --k, maybe that's too small, but these are the things that I often think of and day dreaming of improving. I often wonder how I could get my dream to come true...sometimes I just daydream to escape what is. It's not the most healthy way of dealing with a situation but I guess I'm making the most of it by doing so. Occasionally letting my dreams overcome my reality in hopes that it will lead me to the "how to" of crossing over. It may not be realistic either but it's one way I know how to do it. One way I can figure things out. I know eventually steps need to be made but somehow fear of the unknown is pulling me back. Complacency is a bitch if you let it control you. I think we occasionally find ourselves in that predicament anyway. The mundane becoming our everyday life though we are craving for a much better one...a much more exciting life. The question is: Will we then be happy, once the dream has come true? I have no idea. Some say yes, but others...well, others say that it's the journey that makes the goal even sweeter and once you're there, new goals sprout and so the cycle begins yet again. The analysis of what needs to be done. The roadmap on how to get there. And the willingness to take the good with the bad and keep on keepin' on. And so the mind tricks recycle....it maybe a different setting or a different situation but our mind makes us see things in our own way. Maybe so that we can process the information better or better yet, just to plain survive the hectic, unpredictableness of life. Sometimes though, as I look at things, I just let my mind embrace me. To take me to places I would dare not go in my reality. Why is that? I really don't know.

Well, I see a couple of loads of laundry should be done. Maybe my mind would play a trick and tell me that it already IS done and need not be bothered. Yet again, that can't be. I can maybe pretend that I'm in a jungle and I wash my clothes out in the river. Perhaps find myself in the prehistoric times, and do my laundry with dinosaur operated washing machine. Well, as I let my mind go about its business of fooling me, I find that life is funner if you just let it be. I'm more creative that way anyway. So mind, let it be, let it be...play ticks on me.