Love what you do

"Love What You Do!" I always hear this phrase. From my mom, grandma, friends, friend's parents, Tom (our youth minister) and yesterday, from a wonderful supervisor at a parole and probation office. I hear it but it has never really hit home 'til yesterday. I understand the concept. I understand the reason. But its application eludes me. I guess now I'm realizing that I have to want to be proud of what I'm doing and not mind the crazy nuances that comes with everything we do. There is bad that sometimes comes with the good.

I would like to say that I "Love What I Do" right now but I really can't. I don't Love what I do. I do not wake up in the morning and get excited about going to work. Maybe in the beginning I was but now, well, now is a totally different story. I love the concept of what I am doing. The end result that I would probably not see first hand but helping others is a great goal. But I guess my situation echoes about 75% or more of people's feelings about their job (maybe more actually). But I don't want to fall under that majority...like the Green Day song goes "I want to be a minority."

One thing that's good to say though, "I love what I do" outside of work. I love working with the youth. I love playing and hearing music. I love people. I love learning about their life, their loves, their hopes and dreams, their quirks and irregularities --then embracing the whole package as something that enriches my life. If only I can have THAT as my work, then I will be peachy. When will that happen? Well, once I get my butt off this seat and start looking for jobs. The music thing --well, that's got a long ways to go. I also can't bank on it...but the future is the future and all we can do now is TRY to prepare for it. Who knows what it will bring? I just hope that one day I can actually scream to the world, "I Love What I do."

A friend just sent this to me...it was nice so I figured I should share.

"To Let Go"

To let go...does not mean to stop caring, it means I cannot do it for someone else.

To let go is not to cut myself off, it is the realization that I cannot control another.

To let go is to admit powerlessness, which means the outcome is not in my hands.

.....is not to try to change or blame another, it is to make the most of myself.

.....is not to care for, but to care about.

.....is not to fix, but to be supportive.

.....is not to judge, but to allow another to be a human being.

.....is not to be in the middle arranging all the outcomes, but to allow others to affect their own destinies.

.....is not to be protective, it is to permit another to face reality.

.....is not to deny, but to accept.

.....is not to nag, scold, or argue, but instead search out my own shortcomings and correct them.

.....is not to adjust everything to my desires, but to take each day as it comes, and cherish myself in it.

.....is not to regret the past, but to grow and live for today.

.....is to fear less and *love* more.

~ author unknown