WOW

I can't believe it's been a week since I've written on me blog. I'm usually better than that. I also can't believe that I haven't written anything about the retreat. I guess it's because most of the stuff I was thinking I kinda do not want to share with people. I have written my thoughts down on my hand written journal. Yes, you read right. Hand written journal. I'm not doing as well at writing on it like this one for I really like typing vs. hand writing but I guess it's good to have something that I keep to myself. Why sensor? I'm not sure. I think what I was thinking is so personal this time that I am not ready to share to my beloved friends. In time I shall write it down. 'Til then, it will be kept beside my bed on a bounded notebook.

I've had 2 guitar lessons so far and I'm learning a lot. I was amazed. I'm more determined now to get better since I have a little handicap (little hands) that makes it a tad difficult for me to learn. I'm a little frustrated since I know what I need to do, it's just a matter of my hands to stretch and hold down the strings better. Wes, my good 'ol teacher is helping me with techniques to strengthen, stretch, and hold on to the neck of the guitar better for better sound. I think I need to get new thinner strings the next time I do change...which would be next month. I'll be changing strings every month instead of every week like the guy from the guitar shop.

I received a letter from my aunt the other day and she said that there is a position openning at the UN for general service. I talked to a bunch of people and they all advised me, well maybe except for my sister, that I should apply for it. So I told my aunt to submit my resume. I'm torn really. I don't know that if I do get it if I really want the position. I mean, I'm just getting to know more people here. I love my church. I'm learning more about myself. I'm still struggling about what I want to do. So do I really want to add another new adventure to my plate? I really don't know. If God wants me to be doing this, then I shall go. I'm going to pray on it. LOTS. I pray that I will get an answer. I guess if I don't get in, it would be clear. I still think I should be a rock star! =) It's funny to write or say but why not? I can dream. I can have an aim. I can actually see myself doing it. What my road would be from here to there, I don't know but i sure am up for the challenge. "Never settle for the path of least resistance. Living might mean taking chances
But they're worth taking. [I'll be] giv[ing] faith a fighting chance." and I shall "Dance!"

I'm also finding some sounds that I love. It's just a matter of finding the words to go with it as well as the rhythm. I'm still experimenting. I'm really excited. I'm not going to push it. I'm learning. I'm learning lots and I LOVE it. Patience.....good virtue to have. Well, I'll be making the most of my snow day today. I just finished Harry Potter, year 5. So I'll be starting a new book. Not sure which one but Adrienne gave me lots to read so I have some choices. I'll be sporadically playing my guitar too so that I will not burn out when I get really frustrated. Baby steps. That's how I'll learn. I'm no prodigy nor am I gifted when it comes to guitar playing but I shall forge on.

Pray for me...that I may find my way and that I may be found.