riddle me this . . .

Riddle me this . . . Riddle me that . . . How does one eat an elephant?

I found out today that my friend Nell is almost seriously dating this guy. Yes, she still has some doubts but it's going well enough that she's met his mom and he's meeting her family later this week. I should be a good friend and be happy for her. I am. But I'm sad that I don't have someone.

I'm so tired of being afraid of finding someone when all I really want is to be with someone. What a predicament I am in. There's something in me that's making me blind and leaving me unable to see men who are actually interested. Getting fixated on one person that I know would no reciprocate my feelings. It's my flaw, among many. I need to get through all the gunk in me and find out what is holding me from removing my blinders.

That's a lot of work. That's gonna be hard. I'll have to do what the answer to the riddle says, "one bite a a time."