someone

Have you ever had that moment where, you sit and sadness just embraces you. That you realize all of a sudden that you are all alone despite all the people around you. That you have yet to find that one person, unlike everyone else you know. And then it dawns on you that the reason why you've kept yourself so busy the past few weeks was because you were trying so hard, so so hard to run away from this very embrace . . . without you even consciously doing it?

Your heart sinks. Your eyes tears up. You look at your surroundings and say . . . why the fuck am I here? Despite the fact that you can choose to preoccupy yourself once more with "things to do," you decide to open yourself to the embrace and feel. To stop and feel that very emotion you are trying to staidly ignore and run from.

I'm there right now. Wishing there was someone to hold me and let me know that all I'm feeling is for naught. That he is here. That I am loved and loved unconditionally. My heart right now is ready to explode. I can feel the tears roll down my cheeks as I write this and yet I let it. I let it. I wanna find that someone.

Where are you?