Like what I wrote on my last blog, I'm in this massive flux of funkiness --not the smell mind you, but just that black cloud of emotional blah following me around like a glued on plague.
I guess my mantra hasn't worked and Jesus' time isn't now. I don't usually like writing about this emotion. I feel like I have no right to. Though DJ said that its human though quite vain. If that's the case, Vanity is the root of all evil! I always despised people who just whine about being single though, really, singlehood is great. So, why on God's green earth am I complaining about it? This horrid state is incongruous with my self prescribed logic --Men and women who desperately want someone needs to be shot. Granted, I'm nowhere near that state, THANK GOODNESS!! But it's a slippery slope.
Most of the time I'm quite happy where I am in life. Then in moments of weakness, tadahhh --this blog is the testament on the contrary. Maybe because I haven't gotten a new job yet and I have no control over that either --that I revert to this hated state of mind.
Whatever it is, I need to get out of it. I wonder what would lead me to redemption? Hmmm, maybe if I'd do what Ed is doing ... stop watching cute movies --like "The Wedding Date," would help. OR --I get a new job. At least then, I'd be pre-occupied with something else.
Gosh darn it ... patience is a virtue, patience is a virtue, patience is a virtue . . .
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