California

I'm out here in sunny California and enjoying quite the vacation with family. So far, I've been to 4 beaches and yet to have a good tan. I hate the fact that it takes so much for me to get color. =( *sigh* I'm not sure why that happens, but regardless of what tanning potion I put on my skin, it doesn't seem to matter. The color takes about a day to come . . . or maybe more.

I miss my family here though. They are so much fun. We are all around the same age and we like similar things and have quite similar dispositions. I wish we are all near each other so we can hangout more but alas, we are on opposite sides of the country and communication comes down to text messages, phone calls, and IMs. I have nothing to complain about really . . . I'm just happy that my family is tight and I appreciate it so much.

I was also hoping that this mini vacation would help me forget and get over my heart woes. That I'd meet someone out here just to get my mind of things. But its not like I'm gonna do anything about it since that's not me. I'm quite conservative when it comes to romantic relationships. Why do you think I'm still single, and proudly a virgin? By choice at that.

I say mini vacation because part of the reason I came out here is to visit my aunt Meds. She is going through her second vaut of chemotherapy or is it a continuation of ... she had surgery about 6 weeks ago and they found lesions on her liver thus having to have chemo again. She's still pretty strong. She gets cold quite easily and her spirits are high. Though once in a while you'll see in her a quiet and pained disposition that she tries hard to mask. My heart aches when I get a glimpse of this. I'm only her niece . . . I can only imagine how her kids feel.

So California. Home to relaxation, to forgetting, to healing and pain. I hope to go home more refreshed and alive with a new look into the world. California can do that. Helps you slow down life and makes you appreciate the smaller things in life.