"ouch!" ... but why?

I've tried to imagine an alternative life. That of me doing something else other than what I am doing now. Will I be happier then? Will I be more fulfilled? I really don't know. The fact is, we are given this hand and we ought to play it to the best of our ability. We win some. We lose some. There is no room for "what if's." I've said this a million times before and I'm saying it again. I don't want to be at the twilight of my life and look back with regret. I have those though. Those times when fear sets in and I choose the wrong thing, knowing later I'd feel regret. Like I ought to just have sang at my grandma's birthday bash. Why didn't I? I got scared. I got shy...but why? I can sing. Everyone knows I can sing...even me and yet I doubt it. Can someone tell me why? Goodness....how can I attain my goal of being a rock star if I can't even sing in front of family. Then again though, family criticisms are more poignant than those who you don't know.

Well, the new year is approaching. Maybe that's something I can work on. Just going with the flow and do it. Tell me, what's your resolution?