I smile at you

Sometimes when I get really down and depressed, I simply pop in some great music and drive around with the moonroof and windows wide open. I smile at the sun shine and let the wind take all the worries away. Others, call on their family for some uplift. I find that really great. I just spoke with my friend Cara and like me, she's hating her job. Hers it sounds, is much worse than my experience at my work. She was in tears and had a panic call to her mother ... as she drives to her daughter's aid at 3am. Family --great pick-me upper. Then there are others who lean towards a more destructive way of dealing with "issues" in their life. Some go and drink it all away. Perhaps top that icing off with smoking a joint or two .... or if you have enough money, a gram of cocaine or heroin. These sets of examples, well, suffice to say is not the recommended way of handling a challenging situation in your life. I for one have taken the attitude of 'keep on keepin' on." Though there are times when your dopamine dips too low and you do feel melancholy. That can be remedied with (for me anyway) a nice run around the block or my carefree drive. Just some time to get my mind to wander around the good things going on with my life than dwell on things that are not. Maybe that's why I decided not to even apply to become a youth minister. Did I ever mention that? But I did have that opportunity but after much self-diagnosis, talking to people I trust, and lots of praying well, I find that it was not for me. I love volunteering and it's a part of my life where I do not feel the pressure or hassles I get from work. It's a way for me to decompress and have fun with the kids (though sometimes they have that tendency to drive you nuts). Then changing that dynamic to being paid to do so? Well, I decided I needed the different compartments I've created in my life. I needed a place where I can be happy helping other just because I want to and not because I have to. So there it is. I need to make some changes, so does everyone else I gather. What are we doing about it? Changing life is difficult. It takes a lot work, in hopes that one day it will be a better life to live. And so I think its just going to be better if we allow ourselves to smile. I smile at you my friend for finding the courage to 'keep on keepin' on'.