Sometimes

Sometimes I feel like being on a spotlight
With people surrounding me, loving me, life of the party
Sometimes I feel like disappearing
Hiding behind the shadows and just peering into the night

So let me tell you that I am often torn
Torn between this, and torn between another
I'd like to be whatever I want to be
Yet something inside me is just not letting me

Maybe because I want to please everyone else
Trying to be what others want me to be
Sometimes though what that is
Is definitely far from the real me

Sometimes I feel like I am obligated
Expectations by others needed to be met
Sometimes I let the balls drop
Just feeling the pressure and wanting to leave the lot

So here it is, I am torn again
Torn between what others want, and that of who I am
Beyond what you see, there is really more to me
Should I just not follow the crowd as I sometimes do
And just make my own beat to pursue

I feel torn most days
Sometimes I'd rather be alone
Perfectly content with being me
No one tugging onto my reality
Should I keep me on sometimes, or all the time
It's just a matter of me loving me, and saying
I'm me --take me or leave me
I'll always be me