This is the thought...

i received a phone call this evening. a friend of mine was showing concern for my well being. i was of course happy that someone is looking out for me. and so i listen to his concern. the more i listened, the more it irked me. his concern was that i'm associating myself with people who are obviously bad influences on me and therefore might lead me astray from the path of redemption. it is hard to digest. it is hard to not take it personally that this friend of yours sees you as weak and would then be influenced to walk a path of sin. I would like to think I have more sense than that and that I have enough values and trust in God that I would not fall astray. I of course voiced out this to my friend. He did not mean it to be judging. And yet why does it feel that it does? A judgment of your chosen relationships to non-christian friends who I may agree live a life i would not live. but that does not mean, i should condemn them nor should i place judgment on them. i pray for my non-friends that they may see the light. all of them know my own convictions, and if they want some guidance, they know they can turn to me. i am not one to push my beliefs on others however, i am one to maybe show them that there are other ways. but there are those however, that you agree to disagree and have a respectable understanding of differences. of boundaries that need not be crossed. we care for each other that much that one aspect of our lives need not destroy years of friendship. and so i pose this question: what does one do in situations that two opposing sides of beliefs are tugging on you? One, shows concern for your well being and the other, respects you enough not to throw it at your face --that hey I live a life of sin and I'm not changing for anything. One cannot just throw away history, and friendship when there is no reason for it. he has never placed me in compromising situations. believe it or not, i get a heads up if he's up to something he knows i will not agree. i'm always given a choice as to partake or not and i most often do not ...actually, never have. and so a moral dilemma has come to be...what should i do? awareness is one thing but what's next? information such as that cannot just be tucked aside. i feel like i have to do something and yet i know not what to do. ah and so the dilemma goes on....

within this narrow path i pass
without thought i walk on
i notice nothing
and i hear nor feel anything

the wind suddenly blew
and suddenly i noticed you
where was i when you came
in my own little world it seems

and suddenly i started feeling
as quickly i started hearing
my senses picking up on everything
an overwhelming sensation overcoming

i continue to walk on
this narrow path of mine
now with my eyes wide open
i'm enjoying this trip, i have at last