Monday, September 22, 2003

dark side of me

so i just came from a catechist meeting. if you can even believe it, i'll be teaching junior high kids about religion. scary! ha! but tom and i were talking about the impact of music on us and how certain lyric triggers emotions and ideas. that's what i want to do. be able to write about emotions that would reach people.

and so i thought i was ok
i thought i'd be fine
i woke up frightened that i've reached my time

within myself i retreated
more and more i blocked and hid
i'm surrounded and drowning
inside, guilt is building

i know i've caused so much harm
the chaos and pain i've caused since i've lost my charm
i am to blame for everything
and i am the solution to nothing

how then can i fix this sordid affair
to clean up the stale air
in a hole i dig further
emotions whirling as i try to focus
a devise that can end it alltogether

deeper and deeper i receded
solutions hard to grasp
the only way out, is to slip into the night
no longer to be heard and be out of sight

sorry if i ever hurt you
sorry if i started it all
sorry if i am to blame
i hope my solution will solve it all

goodbye pain
goodbye all
goodbye to all the problems
i've ended it and all is forsaken

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